This time around I'm going to talk about summer vacations.I'm going to talk only about the summer vacations I've seen after school.Since , there wasn't much that happened during holidays in school time.Now college has been a great time if you consider summer vacations.Sometimes there would be a bit of a boring ,depressing phase but as the end of college approaches ,it still gives me a heavy feeling in chest that all those experiences were the last.No more summer vacations now.At least like that.
Exit School,the phase before college - It was a blissful phase,I feared that the friends would go away,and there was a little fear,but there was the anticipation that college would be a great time. Therein lay the silver lining , the eldorado we search for. I went to maternal grandparents' house for a month.Had a lot of fun.Watched a hell lot of movies,did a lot of random stuff.I was still a school kid then,didn't know what fun meant,life was so simple.
My first summer vacations after coming to college had been a truly blissful experience.I had given JEE exam again,and it was a fun phase.I had been introduced to the joy of downloading movies and unlimited internet,and hard drives.This led to 2 months of movie mania,watching 2-3 movies a day. Additionally I'd go to a friend's house who had dropped a year and we'd chat around for long time,playing PS3 and exchanging movies and songs. It was a truly blissful phase,like in a bubble where nothing can come in ,nothing can go out,and you have a constant feeling that everything is just alright,and things will take care of themselves.I can just sleep and keep sleeping,no need to worry.
The second summer vacations after coming to college had me worrying a bit about where I was going on with my life,I didn't do much of anything,didn't have a lot of interests academically.All I knew was how to have fun,and that's what I usually did too.I joined an online magazine intern.Where most people were coding away in PHP and java,I wrote articles and got introduced to new people in literary world,those like me who like to write.Who can ask for more from life ? Where there was worry,the antidote was there with me ,alright.Things would fall in place by the end,was the constant reassurance.I read novels,went to that friend's house.
The third summer vacations were spent with friends in hyderabad,doing an intern with Amazon. Now I don't get nostalgic thinking about it but it was a lot of fun,hanging out with friends,and working together.I remember how mum would get sentimental on phone and I'd get homesick too,and miss food.I stopped eating more than once in 2 days by the end of the vacations,but these were still the vacations to be missed.We all worked hard,had good fun. The best part was that there was a sense of fellowship and even though most of our friends were not with us we knew that they'd be there when we'd go back to college from the intern.Things still worked as they were supposed to,there were no complaints,except perhaps about food.
Now I look at the next summer vacations I'll have.For the first time around,I'm not anticipating the summer vacations at all.There'd be no college staring at my face at the end of two months.This is goodbye to all the times,a time to reconcile to the new life.We all friends promise each other that we'd be there for each other till the end,but is this possible ? Does it work like this ? Maybe I'm being cynical,but only the few of our friends remain with us till the end.Why does it have to be like this,though ? Why the weird sensation in chest when all we want is the reassurance that things are gonna be okay at the end of all this.Why was the reassurance there before,and not now? Am I supposed to keep thinking about this question till it eats away at my head.Probably the best part would be to buckle up and accept the winds of change.Like the sky absorb all that comes to us - sorrow,happiness,joy,laughter,dreams - those that have been fulfilled and those that'll remain incomplete. Sad music,resonates with the soul,I wonder when it'll stop making sense.But I'll have to wait for it.
After all ,tomorrow is another day.
Exit School,the phase before college - It was a blissful phase,I feared that the friends would go away,and there was a little fear,but there was the anticipation that college would be a great time. Therein lay the silver lining , the eldorado we search for. I went to maternal grandparents' house for a month.Had a lot of fun.Watched a hell lot of movies,did a lot of random stuff.I was still a school kid then,didn't know what fun meant,life was so simple.
My first summer vacations after coming to college had been a truly blissful experience.I had given JEE exam again,and it was a fun phase.I had been introduced to the joy of downloading movies and unlimited internet,and hard drives.This led to 2 months of movie mania,watching 2-3 movies a day. Additionally I'd go to a friend's house who had dropped a year and we'd chat around for long time,playing PS3 and exchanging movies and songs. It was a truly blissful phase,like in a bubble where nothing can come in ,nothing can go out,and you have a constant feeling that everything is just alright,and things will take care of themselves.I can just sleep and keep sleeping,no need to worry.
The second summer vacations after coming to college had me worrying a bit about where I was going on with my life,I didn't do much of anything,didn't have a lot of interests academically.All I knew was how to have fun,and that's what I usually did too.I joined an online magazine intern.Where most people were coding away in PHP and java,I wrote articles and got introduced to new people in literary world,those like me who like to write.Who can ask for more from life ? Where there was worry,the antidote was there with me ,alright.Things would fall in place by the end,was the constant reassurance.I read novels,went to that friend's house.
The third summer vacations were spent with friends in hyderabad,doing an intern with Amazon. Now I don't get nostalgic thinking about it but it was a lot of fun,hanging out with friends,and working together.I remember how mum would get sentimental on phone and I'd get homesick too,and miss food.I stopped eating more than once in 2 days by the end of the vacations,but these were still the vacations to be missed.We all worked hard,had good fun. The best part was that there was a sense of fellowship and even though most of our friends were not with us we knew that they'd be there when we'd go back to college from the intern.Things still worked as they were supposed to,there were no complaints,except perhaps about food.
Now I look at the next summer vacations I'll have.For the first time around,I'm not anticipating the summer vacations at all.There'd be no college staring at my face at the end of two months.This is goodbye to all the times,a time to reconcile to the new life.We all friends promise each other that we'd be there for each other till the end,but is this possible ? Does it work like this ? Maybe I'm being cynical,but only the few of our friends remain with us till the end.Why does it have to be like this,though ? Why the weird sensation in chest when all we want is the reassurance that things are gonna be okay at the end of all this.Why was the reassurance there before,and not now? Am I supposed to keep thinking about this question till it eats away at my head.Probably the best part would be to buckle up and accept the winds of change.Like the sky absorb all that comes to us - sorrow,happiness,joy,laughter,dreams - those that have been fulfilled and those that'll remain incomplete. Sad music,resonates with the soul,I wonder when it'll stop making sense.But I'll have to wait for it.
After all ,tomorrow is another day.
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