Sunday, May 19, 2013


Slow passing moments ,
Like butterflies in the stomach,
Passed away away so fast,
A swishing sound, sudden to the ears,
Unconvincing to the mind ,was heard,
As the grand stage crumbled ,to fade away.

Dreams and passing moments go opposite ways,
Torn between the roads we move on ahead,
For one road is forever sealed,
And the choice between the roads was never really a choice,
But a harbinger desiring acceptance,
And a soul demanding repentance.

The whirlpool that swirls in the eyes,
Clouding vision by throwing in dust,
When truth is sometimes the lie,
And days speak of the darkest nights,
And black clouds rain in a heavy torrent,
And the fresh mud smell promises of new stories.

The wet moss on the ground,is so soft to touch,
Holding so many stories, 
of what once got buried in the ground.
While the sky holds a pretty rainbow,
So you could happily see,
Your dreams before you fade away, free.

And one might ask a valid question,
Whats the point to all this musing,
I must tell you, none indeed.
Just some thoughts to set me free,
Adios now, so I might see,
Another happy day in another happy dream.

Monday, May 13, 2013

A trip to the bar

You go to a bar,and the bartender is filling your glass up.

You keep drinking and drinking,till you practically can't see anything.And you're like
"Hey bro,fill me up a last glass"

The bartender is all like,
"No sir,I think you've had enough,you should go home.
  So much drinking isn't safe at this time of the night."

And then some mindless squabble over a last glass of wine which you want,but the bartender insists you that you won't get.

He says, 
"Sir don't you need to go home now? "

When you finally realize,as you tell the bartender that there's no line on on the horizon.
"That the home's gone so far away now."

God,Where is it? WHERE IS IT?

Summer Vacations

This time around I'm going to talk about summer vacations.I'm going to talk only about the summer vacations I've seen after school.Since , there wasn't much that happened during holidays in school time.Now college has been a great time if you consider summer vacations.Sometimes there would be a bit of a boring ,depressing phase but as the end of college approaches ,it still gives me a heavy feeling in chest that all those experiences were the last.No more summer vacations now.At least like that.

Exit School,the phase before college - It was a blissful phase,I feared that the friends would go away,and there was a little fear,but there was the anticipation that college would be a great time. Therein lay the silver lining , the eldorado we search for. I went to maternal grandparents' house for a month.Had a lot of fun.Watched a hell lot of movies,did a lot of random stuff.I was still a school kid then,didn't know what fun meant,life was so simple.

My first summer vacations after coming to college had been a truly blissful experience.I had given JEE exam again,and it was a fun phase.I had been introduced to the joy of downloading movies and unlimited internet,and hard drives.This led to 2 months of movie mania,watching 2-3 movies a day. Additionally I'd  go to a friend's house who had dropped a year and we'd chat around for long time,playing PS3 and exchanging movies and songs. It was a truly blissful phase,like in a bubble where nothing can come in ,nothing can go out,and you have a constant feeling that everything is just alright,and things will take care of themselves.I can just sleep and keep sleeping,no need to worry.

The second summer vacations after coming to college had me worrying a bit about where I was going on with my life,I didn't do much of anything,didn't have a lot of interests academically.All I knew was how to have fun,and that's what I usually did too.I joined an online magazine intern.Where most people were coding away in PHP and java,I wrote articles and got introduced to new people in literary world,those like me who like to write.Who can ask for more from life ? Where there was worry,the antidote was there with me ,alright.Things would fall in place by the end,was the constant reassurance.I read novels,went to that friend's house.

The third summer vacations were spent with friends in hyderabad,doing an intern with Amazon. Now I don't get nostalgic thinking about it but it was a lot of fun,hanging out with friends,and working together.I remember how mum would get sentimental on phone and I'd get homesick too,and miss food.I stopped eating more than once in 2 days by the end of the vacations,but these were still the vacations to be missed.We all worked hard,had good fun. The best part was that there was a sense of fellowship and even though most of our friends were not with us we knew that they'd be there when we'd go back to college from the intern.Things still worked as they were supposed to,there were no complaints,except perhaps about food.

Now I look at the next summer vacations I'll have.For the first time around,I'm not anticipating the summer vacations at all.There'd be no college staring at my face at the end of two months.This is goodbye to all the times,a time to reconcile to the new life.We all friends promise each other that we'd be there for each other till the end,but is this possible ? Does it work like this ? Maybe I'm being cynical,but only the few of our friends remain with us till the end.Why does it have to be like this,though ? Why the weird sensation in chest when all we want is the reassurance that things are gonna be okay at the end of all this.Why was the reassurance there before,and not now? Am I supposed to keep thinking about this question till it eats away at my head.Probably the best part would be to buckle up and accept the winds of change.Like the sky absorb all that comes to us - sorrow,happiness,joy,laughter,dreams - those that have been fulfilled and those that'll remain incomplete. Sad music,resonates with the soul,I wonder when it'll stop making sense.But I'll have to wait for it.

After all ,tomorrow is another day.